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Hi.
This is my blog. Well. One out of like 8. But, still.
I show things I want, because it makes me happy.
I enjoy the simpler things in life.

So ignore me.

My name is Elisabeth. A G E : ? ? ?
H E I G H T : 1 6 3 c m. Or so.
H O B B I E S : . . .
Archives → July 2010 → August 2010 → September 2010 → October 2010 → November 2010 → December 2010 → January 2011 → February 2011 → March 2011 → April 2011 → May 2011 → June 2011

DRAGON AGE
D I A L O G U E
Warden: "You must think I'm royally stupid."
Zevran: "I think you're royally tough to kill. And utterly gorgeous. Not that I think you'll respond to simple flattery. But there are worse things in life than serving the whims of a deadly sex goddess."

Warden: "Alistair, she's one Archdemon short of a blight."
Alistair: "Yes, but she seems more... "Ooh, pretty colors!" than "Muahaha! I am Princess Stabbity! Stab, kill, kill!"

Z E V R A N
"'Death happens,' as we like to say. 'And when I get paid for it, death happens more often.'"
"I don't mind never speaking of it again, as long as we could do it again."
"The Crows aren't so bad. They keep one well supplied: wine, women, men. Whatever you happen to fancy. Though the whole severance package is garbage, let me tell you. If you were considering joining, I'd really think twice about it."
"Arg! Pirate Zevran reporting for duty! Prepare to be boarded!"
"The symphony I see in thee/ it whispers songs to me/ songs of hot breath upon my neck/ songs of sighs beside my head/ songs of nails dug in my back/ songs of thee come to my bed."
"Just once I'd like to walk into one of these places and discover a lively dance, or a drinking festival. Or an orgy. But alas, no "
"And here I thought the Wonders of Thedas would be a whore house. Pity."

A L I S T A I R
"You smell great; is that death you're wearing? It really suits you."
"Have you ever licked a lamp post in winter?"
"That's what I'm here for. To deliver unpleasant news and witty one-liners."
"Join us brothers and sisters. Join us in the shadows where we stand vigilant. Join us as we carry the duty that can not be forsworn. And should you perish, know that your sacrifice will not be forgotten. And that one day we shall join you."
"Well aside from the fact that she's a complete and utter bitch, no...I dont like her at all. Why? Do you?"
"Swooping is bad."
"Just remember that she's dangerous. And evil. And mean."
"We won? We did? Yay!"

M O R R I G A N
“And now we have a dog. And Alistair is still the stupidest member of the party.”
"Your man is dead. Get over it."
"What will they send next, darkspawn tax collectors?"
"Apparently everyone seems to agree that a blight is the perfect time to start killing each other. Marvelous, really."
"Now we threaten priests, how fun!"

L E L I A N A
"Walking corpses? Do you think it's something in the water?"
"My bruises form a pretty pattern!"
"The righteous stand before the darkness, and the Maker shall guide their hand."
"Ooh! A windmill. I once took a ride on the sails of a windmill. Didn't turn out well."
"Look at what that woman's wearing! Is she drunk or does she just have bad taste?"

HANA YORI DANGO
"Ah, shit. Just eat some popcorn." - Gu Jun Pyo
“I like you. No matter how hard I try not to like you, no matter how hard I try to erase you… my efforts are so fruitless to the extent that I get angered by it.” - Jan Di
“I can’t promise her anything now. I can’t tell her I’ll always make her laugh, that I’ll make her happy or to trust in me. Being the son of someone like that, being a member of that kind of family — I hate it enough myself so how must she feel? She would of have hated everything she went through already.” – Jun Pyo
“I don’t know when it started either. But now, I can’t be without you.” – Ji Hoo
“After meeting you, there’s only been one thing I wish for — for you to be happy and not cry anymore. I’m afraid that after tomorrow, you won’t be able to smile again.” – Ji Hoo
”I stepped back as a friend — I gave up because she was my friend’s girlfriend. I gave you a chance up till the end. I’m not going to hold back anymore.” – Ji Hoo
“There’s already someone I love. She’s the first in my life and for the rest of my life, she’ll be the only one. You still want to marry me?” – Jun Pyo
“Good shoes take you to good places.” - Seo Hyun
“I hope you will change your thinking that commoners’ pride can be bought with money. People’s hearts can’t be bought either. You don’t know that, do you? But he knows that now.” – Jan Di
”If you two break up, I’m going to feel so wronged I’ll die. So if you want to split up, you have to report to me and get my approval.” – Jae Kyung
“You do this every time. Whenever I try to get closer, you trample my heart like it’s nothing. Do I still mean so little to you?” – Jun Pyo
“If the person you love is suffering because of you, can you let her go?” – Ji Hoo
“I came to find your heart. I didn’t lose it on purpose.” – Jan Di
“It’s not a dream. If it were, it wouldn’t have been so painful. After sending you off, I realized that I’d done nothing all this time. When I came to my senses, you were on the plane. So it’s not a dream. Because you’re in front of me now.” – Ji Hoo “Idiot. Stupid. Double-digit-IQ dummy. How could I do that when you were captured? I’d rather get all my ribs broken than let them damage one of your fingers. But still, why did you rush in when I was letting them beat the hell out of me? What if something happened?” – Jun Pyo
“One, I don’t mess with nice girls. Two, I don’t mess with foolish girls. Three, I absolutely don’t mess with girls connected with my friends. You know all three apply to you, don’t you? My answer is no.” – Yi Jung
“Can you hear me? While you’ve been away, I’ve thought of you every day — but why do I only remember us fighting? Still, isn’t it odd? I only remember us fighting and getting mad all the time, but when I think about you, I laugh. You’re okay, right? When are you going to come back and fight with me?” – Jan Di
“It’s not too late. It would only take one word, if you said that you like me…” – Jun Pyo

HANA KIMI
“Your smile gives me strength but your sadness always comes from Sano. I will definitely make you happy.” – Nakatsu
“Depend on me, I don’t care… I don’t care who you love. I love you.” – Nakatsu
“Even when I’m an old geezer, so old that I can’t even remember my own name, I won’t forget all the time we’ve spent together… ever. To me, you are… the best. The best friend I had ever.” – Nakatsu
“Right now, the word homosexual isn’t the least bit offensive to me. No. I should say my love has already transcended gender. I’m truly proud of myself. If only I could give Mizuki a helpful push, he’d be willing to accept his forbidden love. Ike Ike! Go! Go! Ore Go Gooooo!” – Nakatsu

COFFEE PRINCE
"I like you. Whether you're a man, or an alien... I don't care anymore." - Han Kyul
“I want to live with you. For the rest of my life, I want to eat together, talk together, sleep together, be together. Do I need any other reason?” – Han Kyul
“No matter how meanly you treat me, you’re still pretty to me. Even if you get mad and yell, you’re cute. I really like you a lot. But if you truly hate me, I won’t call you anymore and I’ll give up. So tell me, do you really hate me?” – Min Yeop
“The moment a man makes a woman his, the man wants that woman to live according to his wishes. But just because he’s won her over, can he force her to do as he wants?” – Han Sung
“Grab onto him. He liked you even when he thought you were a guy. Who knows, maybe he won’t go.” – Sun Ki
“I never thought I’d be left behind since you were always the one who loved me more. But seeing the small changes in your gaze, your sighs, your expressions… made my heart fall with a thump. It’s funny that as my feelings for you grew, I lost confidence. So I thought, ‘Let’s preserve the last of my pride. Before I’m left, let’s leave first’. That’s why I ran away. I was so afraid of what would happen if you didn’t grab hold of me.” – Yoo Joo
“The other day at work, I had this thought – Even if I could just be by his side, that would be nice. Then I wouldn’t have anything more to wish for.” – Eun Chan

YAMATO NADESHIKO SHICHI HENGE
“It doesn’t matter what the world thinks, nor what your parents think. If you don’t like yourself even if the world loves you then you need to become a person whom you like.” – Mine
“You should worry about your insides getting uglier more than worrying about your face.” – Kyohei
“Love makes you a coward.” – Takanaga
“The ‘you’ that you hate is the one that I love…” – Kyohei
“There are things that you can see because you believe in them.” – Mine
“The moment she falls in love with the world’s best man, that would be the time when a girl turns into a lady.” – Mine
“Now that he knows how great she is regardless of the way she looks… it’s probably frustrating for him to think that if she doesn’t change the way she looks, people wont notice how great she is.” – Takenaga
“Apparently in life, we end up being like a lost child at times. The more we struggle, the least likely we’re to find our way. And it can be very frightening… because everyone around us looks like an enemy. And although we may think we’re all alone in the world, the truth is that when we do get really lost, we have no other choice but to wait for someone to come find us. The person who really cares about us will definitely come for us.” – Kyohei
“I wanted to because as bright as you are. I thought that if I stepped into your world, I’d be able to stand beside you.” – Sunako
“You are fine the way you are…” – Kyohei

YOU'RE BEAUTIFUL
“You were almost there… just one more step and you would’ve found me.” – Shin Woo
“Even in a place where reporters and fans don’t chase after me, why is a pig chasing me?” – Tae Kyung
“I told myself I couldn’t see you, but you’re someone who draws the eye. But if I see you, it hurts and makes things tough for me. After only living at the convent, I came to live in this land of stars and was hit by electricity and lost my senses. I flew up right into the heavens and then crashed down to the ground. Fireworks exploded in my head and in one moment a thundering rainstorm crashed down on me. Since I’ve left this star-land, I saw the path I am to live. I would have to leave the star-land and just watch it from afar. If I see the brightest-shining star close up, it’s so blinding to the eyes that it hurts. That is why I am going to go far away.” – Mi Nam

“Don’t be anywhere where I can’t see you!” – Tae Kyung
“Then I can’t hold on to you. I wanted to be able to see you well when you came back, so I was trying to see even in the dark. Every day, I even ate the carrots and spinach I hate, because I worried that I might lose you in the dark. Because I didn’t want to lose you. But I can’t even hold on to you when I can see you well.” – Tae Kyung
“I bet you didn’t let her go, you shoved her away. Letting go is only something you can say when you’ve held on till the end. Have you held on to her? What you saw in Japan was me holding on to her till the very end. It must have looked pathetic and laughable to you, but because I took it all the way, I could let her go. You didn’t do that, did you? You just stood there in your place and didn’t think of following her when she said it was hard, didn’t you? Fine, keep preserving your pride and stand there until she runs far away, mighty Hwang Tae-kyung.” – Shin Woo

“It’s not a crime to like someone.” – Jeremy
“You’re listening now, aren’t you? It’s so bright here, and your side is so dark that I can’t see you. Please, don’t be where I can’t see you! Come to where I can see you. Give permission to let me see you.” – Tae Kyung
“Even so, the moon has its uses. Rather than pointlessly brightening up an already bright day, it gives light on a dark night. Isn’t that useful?” – Mi Nam
“I’m going to keep telling you, so listen good every day. I love you.” – Tae Kyung
“When I thought you were a guy, I was okay with it. When I found out you were a girl, I was okay with it. But if you like him, I can’t be okay with it. Why? Why wasn’t it me? I told you about my treasure bus, and I let you close to Jolie and I was going to sing a song only for you. Why don’t you like me?” – Jeremy

“He’s like a bright, shining star. When I receive that light, I feel brighter and also darker. When it’s bright I get my hopes up, and when it darkens I feel disappointment. I hate myself for this and feel ashamed.” – Mi Nam
“Seeing how you worried about me even though you were that sick, you seem to have some loyalty. Seeing you enduring through it, you’ve also got some spirit. I haven’t wanted to accept you and wanted to reject you, but because of this, I’m accepting you. I’m on the same team as you now, so I feel a duty to look after you, and I’ll take responsibility for your affairs, too.” – Tae Kyung

“I don’t want to admit it, but I’ve been dumped. Believing that she would come back when she was feeling better was my delusion. Pig-Rabbit looked totally fine. I was the only one hanging on. Before things get any worse, I’d better reply that I’m okay.” – Tae Kyung
“I see you very well right now. You can’t see me because it’s too bright, can you? When I couldn’t see you, were you always crying like that?” – Tae Kyung
“We’re one team now. You said you came here today because you didn’t want anyone to be hurt. If that’s what you want, then keep acting as a man through the end. Even if you want to quit now, we can’t let that happen. We’ll take responsibility for you, so you take responsibility for us, too.” – Tae Kyung
“You can’t even see anything properly! You’re well-off on your own, so bright on your own that those around you can’t see in the dark! You can’t see anything properly and you don’t know anything, so why are you acting like this? Why are you angry with me, who’s just trying to endure? Just leave me in the dark. Who asked for you to look at me?” – Mi Nam
“Yes, because of this song, my mother was abandoned. You were also abandoned by your mother, so you must been very hurt. But my mother also felt such a huge pain that she gave birth to me alone and died. ‘Go make friends?’ How could I make friends with your mother? Are you so busy thinking only of yourself that you cannot bother to see anything else? I’m sorry that I knew about your mother and didn’t say anything. You looked so sad that I could not let on that I knew. I’m sorry that I knew you were remaking my father’s song and didn’t say anything. I did not know the story behind it. You told me not to show myself to you. But it’s hard for me to see you, too. That’s why I’m going far away, where I won’t be seen. So there will be no reason for us to feel pain as we see each other any longer.” – Mi Nyeo

“When I’ve disliked a person in the past, I kept disliking them, because they kept doing things I disliked. I disliked you from the moment I saw you, and sure enough you did the thing I hate most. It’s clear that you’ll keep doing things I hate and that I’ll keep hating you. So that forgiveness you talk about won’t happen now, or ever.” – Tae Kyung
“That writer wrote, ‘Everyone who doesn’t love is guilty.’ That means that anyone who loves, no matter who they love, is guiltless.” – Jeremy
“I’m going to keep telling you, so listen good every day. I love you.” – Tae Kyung
“We’re one team now. You said you came here today because you didn’t want anyone to be hurt. If that’s what you want, then keep acting as a man through the end. Even if you want to quit now, we can’t let that happen. We’ll take responsibility for you, so you take responsibility for us, too.” – Tae Kyung
“Even though I haven’t confessed to her yet, I feel like I’ve been rejected a hundred times already.” – Shin Woo

DRAMAS
“My next life I only want to love one person. If that person doesn’t love me, it doesn’t matter, I won’t bother. I just wish that I can see that person everyday.” – Joon-suh//Autumn in My Heart

ANIME/MANGA
"There will never be time when my heart gets tired of you, Hikari..." - Kei//Special A

Just went on a hysterical rampage, and went insane. Wait. No. I'm always like that. It's okay. I'm okay. No, I'm not. 


Daisy went god-knows where. And you know what? I'm sitting here waiting for her and Ethan. 
How pathetic.
I just want to quit skype. Quit everything. I'm tired of it, all. He has forgotten me. She has forgotten me. Several times. I'm tired of people telling me to let go, when I wouldn't be like this, if I wasn't worrying so much. If I could just let go, I would. 


But no. I feel like crying my eyes out. 


Don't you dare tell me to rely on you, when you don't do anything when the time comes. It's like Henry all over again.


No wonder I don't believe anyone.


I'm just tired. Tired of trying to make everyone happy, when I'm upset.
Tired of trying for myself. 
Tired of letting my friends go, and forget me. Then they never come back. 


Tired of making people give up whatever, for me. 
Tired of giving up everything for everyone.
Tired of being there for people who were never there for me. 
Tired of having a heart. 
Tired of trying to be a person, to anyone.
Tired of trying to be a person to myself. 
Tired of letting people go, while I don't want them to, but I know they'll be happy.
Tired of being given up on.
Tired of not giving up on others.


Hell. I didn't give up on Mikio. What makes you think I'll give up on anyone? I never did. I was always there, if someone asked me to be there for them. I always tried, though I was so tired. 


It's always there. I need a therapist. I need someone. I need something, other than myself to trust. 


The only person I have is myself. What a comfort. 


I'm tired of being pushed to the side, like some plaything that's forgotten after you have used it. I'm tired of thinking of everyone else. I'm tired. But I'm going to do it anyway. 


I'm tired of crying, and having no one to cry to. 
I'm sick of wiping my face, and smiling, and saying: Hey, mom. How was work? 
Sick of smiling and saying: Daisyy. Come on, cheer up.
Sick of smiling, and breaking down. 


Oh, god. I'm crying. They're like. Falling down my face.


But here I am.
Lying.
Because it makes them both happy, if they can be together.
And I can't have either of them if that happens.
But that's okay.
They're happy.


Sick and tired of someone telling me they'll be there, and smiling, saying: I know.
When they're not there.
Of saying: It's fine. Don't worry about it. It's all good.


Sick of living.
Sick of beliving people.
Sick of being there for people.
Sick of being lonely.
Sick of feeling guilty.
Sick of hating myself, because sometimes, I can't be there.
Sick of being rejected.
Sick of being second choice. 
Sick of being forgotten.
Sick of being used.
Sick of hoping.
Sick of changing myself.
Sick of wishing.
Sick of lying.
Sick of smiling.
Sick of pretending.
Sick of saying, it's okay.
Sick of accepting everyone's stupid apologies, when they mean shit.
Sick of being this way,
Sick of acting happy.
Sick of trying to understand everyone and be there, when I can't even for myself. 
Sick of screaming and telling myself horrible things in the mirror.
Sick of cutting myself.
Sick of feeling like I don't deserve to live.
Sick of my stupid mood swings.
Sick of the constant headaches, and body pains.
Sick of the emotional heartache.
Sick of the oblivious nature of those around me.
Sick of the stupidity in life. 
Sick of forgiving everyone.


And doing it all over again, when they've had a million chances, where I've felt bad, and it wasn't my fault, but as I say this.
This isn't even all of it.
I believe it's my fault.