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Hi.
This is my blog. Well. One out of like 8. But, still.
I show things I want, because it makes me happy.
I enjoy the simpler things in life.

So ignore me.

My name is Elisabeth. A G E : ? ? ?
H E I G H T : 1 6 3 c m. Or so.
H O B B I E S : . . .
Archives → July 2010 → August 2010 → September 2010 → October 2010 → November 2010 → December 2010 → January 2011 → February 2011 → March 2011 → April 2011 → May 2011 → June 2011

DRAGON AGE
D I A L O G U E
Warden: "You must think I'm royally stupid."
Zevran: "I think you're royally tough to kill. And utterly gorgeous. Not that I think you'll respond to simple flattery. But there are worse things in life than serving the whims of a deadly sex goddess."

Warden: "Alistair, she's one Archdemon short of a blight."
Alistair: "Yes, but she seems more... "Ooh, pretty colors!" than "Muahaha! I am Princess Stabbity! Stab, kill, kill!"

Z E V R A N
"'Death happens,' as we like to say. 'And when I get paid for it, death happens more often.'"
"I don't mind never speaking of it again, as long as we could do it again."
"The Crows aren't so bad. They keep one well supplied: wine, women, men. Whatever you happen to fancy. Though the whole severance package is garbage, let me tell you. If you were considering joining, I'd really think twice about it."
"Arg! Pirate Zevran reporting for duty! Prepare to be boarded!"
"The symphony I see in thee/ it whispers songs to me/ songs of hot breath upon my neck/ songs of sighs beside my head/ songs of nails dug in my back/ songs of thee come to my bed."
"Just once I'd like to walk into one of these places and discover a lively dance, or a drinking festival. Or an orgy. But alas, no "
"And here I thought the Wonders of Thedas would be a whore house. Pity."

A L I S T A I R
"You smell great; is that death you're wearing? It really suits you."
"Have you ever licked a lamp post in winter?"
"That's what I'm here for. To deliver unpleasant news and witty one-liners."
"Join us brothers and sisters. Join us in the shadows where we stand vigilant. Join us as we carry the duty that can not be forsworn. And should you perish, know that your sacrifice will not be forgotten. And that one day we shall join you."
"Well aside from the fact that she's a complete and utter bitch, no...I dont like her at all. Why? Do you?"
"Swooping is bad."
"Just remember that she's dangerous. And evil. And mean."
"We won? We did? Yay!"

M O R R I G A N
“And now we have a dog. And Alistair is still the stupidest member of the party.”
"Your man is dead. Get over it."
"What will they send next, darkspawn tax collectors?"
"Apparently everyone seems to agree that a blight is the perfect time to start killing each other. Marvelous, really."
"Now we threaten priests, how fun!"

L E L I A N A
"Walking corpses? Do you think it's something in the water?"
"My bruises form a pretty pattern!"
"The righteous stand before the darkness, and the Maker shall guide their hand."
"Ooh! A windmill. I once took a ride on the sails of a windmill. Didn't turn out well."
"Look at what that woman's wearing! Is she drunk or does she just have bad taste?"

HANA YORI DANGO
"Ah, shit. Just eat some popcorn." - Gu Jun Pyo
“I like you. No matter how hard I try not to like you, no matter how hard I try to erase you… my efforts are so fruitless to the extent that I get angered by it.” - Jan Di
“I can’t promise her anything now. I can’t tell her I’ll always make her laugh, that I’ll make her happy or to trust in me. Being the son of someone like that, being a member of that kind of family — I hate it enough myself so how must she feel? She would of have hated everything she went through already.” – Jun Pyo
“I don’t know when it started either. But now, I can’t be without you.” – Ji Hoo
“After meeting you, there’s only been one thing I wish for — for you to be happy and not cry anymore. I’m afraid that after tomorrow, you won’t be able to smile again.” – Ji Hoo
”I stepped back as a friend — I gave up because she was my friend’s girlfriend. I gave you a chance up till the end. I’m not going to hold back anymore.” – Ji Hoo
“There’s already someone I love. She’s the first in my life and for the rest of my life, she’ll be the only one. You still want to marry me?” – Jun Pyo
“Good shoes take you to good places.” - Seo Hyun
“I hope you will change your thinking that commoners’ pride can be bought with money. People’s hearts can’t be bought either. You don’t know that, do you? But he knows that now.” – Jan Di
”If you two break up, I’m going to feel so wronged I’ll die. So if you want to split up, you have to report to me and get my approval.” – Jae Kyung
“You do this every time. Whenever I try to get closer, you trample my heart like it’s nothing. Do I still mean so little to you?” – Jun Pyo
“If the person you love is suffering because of you, can you let her go?” – Ji Hoo
“I came to find your heart. I didn’t lose it on purpose.” – Jan Di
“It’s not a dream. If it were, it wouldn’t have been so painful. After sending you off, I realized that I’d done nothing all this time. When I came to my senses, you were on the plane. So it’s not a dream. Because you’re in front of me now.” – Ji Hoo “Idiot. Stupid. Double-digit-IQ dummy. How could I do that when you were captured? I’d rather get all my ribs broken than let them damage one of your fingers. But still, why did you rush in when I was letting them beat the hell out of me? What if something happened?” – Jun Pyo
“One, I don’t mess with nice girls. Two, I don’t mess with foolish girls. Three, I absolutely don’t mess with girls connected with my friends. You know all three apply to you, don’t you? My answer is no.” – Yi Jung
“Can you hear me? While you’ve been away, I’ve thought of you every day — but why do I only remember us fighting? Still, isn’t it odd? I only remember us fighting and getting mad all the time, but when I think about you, I laugh. You’re okay, right? When are you going to come back and fight with me?” – Jan Di
“It’s not too late. It would only take one word, if you said that you like me…” – Jun Pyo

HANA KIMI
“Your smile gives me strength but your sadness always comes from Sano. I will definitely make you happy.” – Nakatsu
“Depend on me, I don’t care… I don’t care who you love. I love you.” – Nakatsu
“Even when I’m an old geezer, so old that I can’t even remember my own name, I won’t forget all the time we’ve spent together… ever. To me, you are… the best. The best friend I had ever.” – Nakatsu
“Right now, the word homosexual isn’t the least bit offensive to me. No. I should say my love has already transcended gender. I’m truly proud of myself. If only I could give Mizuki a helpful push, he’d be willing to accept his forbidden love. Ike Ike! Go! Go! Ore Go Gooooo!” – Nakatsu

COFFEE PRINCE
"I like you. Whether you're a man, or an alien... I don't care anymore." - Han Kyul
“I want to live with you. For the rest of my life, I want to eat together, talk together, sleep together, be together. Do I need any other reason?” – Han Kyul
“No matter how meanly you treat me, you’re still pretty to me. Even if you get mad and yell, you’re cute. I really like you a lot. But if you truly hate me, I won’t call you anymore and I’ll give up. So tell me, do you really hate me?” – Min Yeop
“The moment a man makes a woman his, the man wants that woman to live according to his wishes. But just because he’s won her over, can he force her to do as he wants?” – Han Sung
“Grab onto him. He liked you even when he thought you were a guy. Who knows, maybe he won’t go.” – Sun Ki
“I never thought I’d be left behind since you were always the one who loved me more. But seeing the small changes in your gaze, your sighs, your expressions… made my heart fall with a thump. It’s funny that as my feelings for you grew, I lost confidence. So I thought, ‘Let’s preserve the last of my pride. Before I’m left, let’s leave first’. That’s why I ran away. I was so afraid of what would happen if you didn’t grab hold of me.” – Yoo Joo
“The other day at work, I had this thought – Even if I could just be by his side, that would be nice. Then I wouldn’t have anything more to wish for.” – Eun Chan

YAMATO NADESHIKO SHICHI HENGE
“It doesn’t matter what the world thinks, nor what your parents think. If you don’t like yourself even if the world loves you then you need to become a person whom you like.” – Mine
“You should worry about your insides getting uglier more than worrying about your face.” – Kyohei
“Love makes you a coward.” – Takanaga
“The ‘you’ that you hate is the one that I love…” – Kyohei
“There are things that you can see because you believe in them.” – Mine
“The moment she falls in love with the world’s best man, that would be the time when a girl turns into a lady.” – Mine
“Now that he knows how great she is regardless of the way she looks… it’s probably frustrating for him to think that if she doesn’t change the way she looks, people wont notice how great she is.” – Takenaga
“Apparently in life, we end up being like a lost child at times. The more we struggle, the least likely we’re to find our way. And it can be very frightening… because everyone around us looks like an enemy. And although we may think we’re all alone in the world, the truth is that when we do get really lost, we have no other choice but to wait for someone to come find us. The person who really cares about us will definitely come for us.” – Kyohei
“I wanted to because as bright as you are. I thought that if I stepped into your world, I’d be able to stand beside you.” – Sunako
“You are fine the way you are…” – Kyohei

YOU'RE BEAUTIFUL
“You were almost there… just one more step and you would’ve found me.” – Shin Woo
“Even in a place where reporters and fans don’t chase after me, why is a pig chasing me?” – Tae Kyung
“I told myself I couldn’t see you, but you’re someone who draws the eye. But if I see you, it hurts and makes things tough for me. After only living at the convent, I came to live in this land of stars and was hit by electricity and lost my senses. I flew up right into the heavens and then crashed down to the ground. Fireworks exploded in my head and in one moment a thundering rainstorm crashed down on me. Since I’ve left this star-land, I saw the path I am to live. I would have to leave the star-land and just watch it from afar. If I see the brightest-shining star close up, it’s so blinding to the eyes that it hurts. That is why I am going to go far away.” – Mi Nam

“Don’t be anywhere where I can’t see you!” – Tae Kyung
“Then I can’t hold on to you. I wanted to be able to see you well when you came back, so I was trying to see even in the dark. Every day, I even ate the carrots and spinach I hate, because I worried that I might lose you in the dark. Because I didn’t want to lose you. But I can’t even hold on to you when I can see you well.” – Tae Kyung
“I bet you didn’t let her go, you shoved her away. Letting go is only something you can say when you’ve held on till the end. Have you held on to her? What you saw in Japan was me holding on to her till the very end. It must have looked pathetic and laughable to you, but because I took it all the way, I could let her go. You didn’t do that, did you? You just stood there in your place and didn’t think of following her when she said it was hard, didn’t you? Fine, keep preserving your pride and stand there until she runs far away, mighty Hwang Tae-kyung.” – Shin Woo

“It’s not a crime to like someone.” – Jeremy
“You’re listening now, aren’t you? It’s so bright here, and your side is so dark that I can’t see you. Please, don’t be where I can’t see you! Come to where I can see you. Give permission to let me see you.” – Tae Kyung
“Even so, the moon has its uses. Rather than pointlessly brightening up an already bright day, it gives light on a dark night. Isn’t that useful?” – Mi Nam
“I’m going to keep telling you, so listen good every day. I love you.” – Tae Kyung
“When I thought you were a guy, I was okay with it. When I found out you were a girl, I was okay with it. But if you like him, I can’t be okay with it. Why? Why wasn’t it me? I told you about my treasure bus, and I let you close to Jolie and I was going to sing a song only for you. Why don’t you like me?” – Jeremy

“He’s like a bright, shining star. When I receive that light, I feel brighter and also darker. When it’s bright I get my hopes up, and when it darkens I feel disappointment. I hate myself for this and feel ashamed.” – Mi Nam
“Seeing how you worried about me even though you were that sick, you seem to have some loyalty. Seeing you enduring through it, you’ve also got some spirit. I haven’t wanted to accept you and wanted to reject you, but because of this, I’m accepting you. I’m on the same team as you now, so I feel a duty to look after you, and I’ll take responsibility for your affairs, too.” – Tae Kyung

“I don’t want to admit it, but I’ve been dumped. Believing that she would come back when she was feeling better was my delusion. Pig-Rabbit looked totally fine. I was the only one hanging on. Before things get any worse, I’d better reply that I’m okay.” – Tae Kyung
“I see you very well right now. You can’t see me because it’s too bright, can you? When I couldn’t see you, were you always crying like that?” – Tae Kyung
“We’re one team now. You said you came here today because you didn’t want anyone to be hurt. If that’s what you want, then keep acting as a man through the end. Even if you want to quit now, we can’t let that happen. We’ll take responsibility for you, so you take responsibility for us, too.” – Tae Kyung
“You can’t even see anything properly! You’re well-off on your own, so bright on your own that those around you can’t see in the dark! You can’t see anything properly and you don’t know anything, so why are you acting like this? Why are you angry with me, who’s just trying to endure? Just leave me in the dark. Who asked for you to look at me?” – Mi Nam
“Yes, because of this song, my mother was abandoned. You were also abandoned by your mother, so you must been very hurt. But my mother also felt such a huge pain that she gave birth to me alone and died. ‘Go make friends?’ How could I make friends with your mother? Are you so busy thinking only of yourself that you cannot bother to see anything else? I’m sorry that I knew about your mother and didn’t say anything. You looked so sad that I could not let on that I knew. I’m sorry that I knew you were remaking my father’s song and didn’t say anything. I did not know the story behind it. You told me not to show myself to you. But it’s hard for me to see you, too. That’s why I’m going far away, where I won’t be seen. So there will be no reason for us to feel pain as we see each other any longer.” – Mi Nyeo

“When I’ve disliked a person in the past, I kept disliking them, because they kept doing things I disliked. I disliked you from the moment I saw you, and sure enough you did the thing I hate most. It’s clear that you’ll keep doing things I hate and that I’ll keep hating you. So that forgiveness you talk about won’t happen now, or ever.” – Tae Kyung
“That writer wrote, ‘Everyone who doesn’t love is guilty.’ That means that anyone who loves, no matter who they love, is guiltless.” – Jeremy
“I’m going to keep telling you, so listen good every day. I love you.” – Tae Kyung
“We’re one team now. You said you came here today because you didn’t want anyone to be hurt. If that’s what you want, then keep acting as a man through the end. Even if you want to quit now, we can’t let that happen. We’ll take responsibility for you, so you take responsibility for us, too.” – Tae Kyung
“Even though I haven’t confessed to her yet, I feel like I’ve been rejected a hundred times already.” – Shin Woo

DRAMAS
“My next life I only want to love one person. If that person doesn’t love me, it doesn’t matter, I won’t bother. I just wish that I can see that person everyday.” – Joon-suh//Autumn in My Heart

ANIME/MANGA
"There will never be time when my heart gets tired of you, Hikari..." - Kei//Special A

Wonderful, right?! No. I fucking hate it. I feel like crying. I have so much homework. I have my math, French and English due tomorrow. Ugh. I just feel. Awful. Yesterday I got fucking ditched in call with Winter and Holden so I just left. 

When someone invites YOU to a chat, you could at least take the decency to call back if they leave on you. Then Winter bitches about how I want attention. He was in call with Holden for the whole fucking day. A call that was originally us, two, and I decided why not invite Holden? You see Holden every dumb day at school. 

It's always me talking to him. He doesn't bother talking to me. Then he has the nerve to say: That's too bad, when I say good night. How dare you say that when you barely talk to me? I feel absolutely horrible. And you know what? I don't expect the world. That's obvious. But you know, if I see people upset in their blog, I try and make a stupid effort to talk to them. I try to make them feel better. That is COURTESY. I'm not even enough for that.

Yeah, I get it. I need to make myself happy. But you know what? Sometimes the world just steps on you and you're too tired to get up. That's what friends are for. He never asks me if I am okay, anymore. Never. I feel permanently unimportant, and I feel stupid. Because I am always trying to talk to him. But he's too busy with Holden or Daisy or drawing, or his cello or his game. It's fine to do that. It really is. But don't forget other people. I always feel left out anyway. It's always someone inviting me to a private chat and I feel like I am intruding. When I invite people I try not to ignore them. I honestly do. I try to read what they are typing and comment. I try to make shout outs to them. Because I know how it hurts to be ignored. 

Now, I just feel horrible.

I have a Renaissance Project due on the 8th. My Current Events Presentation on the 3rd. Two pages of French, 4 pages of Math, a new booklet for Renaissance, a re-do essay on the Renaissance, a math unit test, a science unit test, a French Animal Farm Booklet to do a human body assignment where we label everything in the body. All this week and the next. JUST assigned. Why are you trying to stuff it all in? WHY. Some of this is even after report cards. ARE YOU STUPID. I HAVE ENOUGH STUFF TO DO. You try to get through ONE SYSTEM OF THE HUMAN BODY in a PERIOD. 

I feel so stressed. I just. I don't know. I'm tired of taking the initiative to talk to people when they won't bother talking to me. This just makes it worse. I have a chance to raise my grades and I won't let it go. 

I'm pissed. I'm stressed. I'm bitchy. I'm tired. I almost punched 6 people today. I broke my pencil and scared the shit out of my friends because of it. I had to be partners with Madison and try and be nice when I was doing everything in gym class for the work out. "You get 30 seconds of push ups, and I'll try and do the rest, okay?" Yay for three minute intervals. 

I know... It's not Holden's fault. But I still feel like complete and utter shit. The magazine stuff should be easy. I just need a few moments of sanity to get that out of the way. My god. 

On the brightside, I now have a 90% or so on my test with corrections done and a 93& on a huge book report. When I told Winter this. He didn't even remember to check our conversation after his game. It was fine that he was in a game. But... 

He doesn't even bother to remember that maybe I exist. He doesn't even look at our conversation. Jerk.